A different life time
“It is so evidently clear to me that I am nowhere near where I want to be. Mentally and physically. At the same moment I realize that where I am is where I need to be to get to where I want to be. Or at least that what they tell me. I’d like to think that I came to school to get an education and be filled with knowledge about my future career. But for some reason I feel I would have been so much better staying home, saving my money, doing yoga, and learning how to make myself better body and soul. I know that sound so fucking psychedelic and like I just came out of a fucking tumblr post but it’s true. All coming to school has done has just made me fear the future and has given me a metal disorder and has sucked me dry of my very little income. But no one takes you seriously without a degree right? So fuck me.”
A very relevant find within the depths of my phone considering I just got my last grade back today confirming that I have all the credits I need to get my diploma. I started to get a serious case of the FOMOS today watching all the college kids document their first night back at school on snapchat and I felt really old and sad for a moment. I found this and couldn’t help but laugh. I loved school and all my friends and the experience as a whole the bad and the good. However I’m glad I reminded myself of the stress that it actually caused me on a daily basis. The party’s were fun, the people were cool, and my apartment was my sanctuary. But now that I’m done I don’t have to worry about the guilt of assignment when I’m just trying to get my drank on. Now I can just get my fucking drank on! And now I can do all those things I complained about wanting to do. But I’m still right about two tings, I am still so fucking completely lost about my future and also I can feel the student loans pulling at my pockets. Life is so bitter sweet no matter what situation you find yourself in. laugh it off and take a shot.